Hi, I just wanted to point out that you seem to be aware of your conflicting feelings and how they are related to reality, and that seems very positive, to me.

So, for what it's worth, it seems like you've tried to address a situation that doesn't work for you, that doesn't seem "right" to you and. . .no change that you can see in that situation. You've done what you can do. That's all you can do, what other people do is up to them. As is the decision to stay or leave up to you.

You've written before about how alone you feel. It makes me feel sad. So, even though I'm not a fan of therapy in general, it makes me feel sad, too, to think of you leaving this therapist. Maybe "church counselors" have a different take on what they are trying to do, IDK?