I know meds work for me, and I am dependant upon them. It scares me to run low, or heaven forbid miss a dose (which I haven't done since I started them except for throwing up a few times). I know I can function normally because of these meds. Without them I hear voices, with them I don't. As far as moodiness it's much less too, but thankfully my emotions aren't all dulled out like they were on Abilify which stopped working for me.

My dad told me never let yourself get addicted to anything. Well I'm not addicted but the closest to an addiction I have is maintaining my medication. My mom is grieving the loss of her 2nd husband and says the meds didn't save him. Well meds do stop working after a while, even heart meds. Once our bodies build up an immunity towards them they're done. I think people should be made aware that all meds could eventually stop working, and maybe switch them up after several years. I was on abilify for 6 years, off meds for 3 years, tried abilify again non responsive, got latuda thank God for new meds or I'd still be crazy today.

I don't like being dependant on meds, but I've learned to live with it. And my mom is amazed to see that meds work. I think it gives her a zest for life seeing the radical changes that have happened to me because of a medication. I think of it often, I was on several meds before latuda. Several including a monthly shot that just dulled the voices but now they are gone. Except an occasional rare breakthrough. But then I really believe God speaks and it isn't often it was the other voices that were often.

I did get lost in a world, and it mixes with reality. But I like being more grounded and centered. My healed vision was taken away by God, now needing bifocals. I was in a battle for my soul. I choose God and when I did my healed vision went back to bad vision, which God said he would heal again (and has through contacts and glasses). But God did heal my ankle so now I can wear heels I've never been able to wear heels because I would limp and be in pain. I even have pictures of spirits.