It's hard when it appears that nothing seems to help.

I used to have a lot of self-hate. I knew something was wrong with me but the professionals didn't say what. I was tired of the old tapes that played the same song.

It's not easy to get rid of that. When I did it, my therapist said, "Who's really talking here?" I honestly admitted that it was my abusive father. He criticized me until before he died. I used reparenting and art therapy and that helped. I still have some negative self-talk but I can counter it. I also deal with body issues but I've found a body-positive community online.

Yes it's a long fight. Therapy started in my late 20s and I'm over 50 now. I'm now starting to feel more at peace.