I went three days and two nights without meds just this week, and by 5 AM this morning---after almost no sleep---I realized that I don't have the balls to go without them. The withdrawal is hell. I've been experimenting with meds this spring thanks to a bout of hypomania, which happens every year around this time. I want to come off some of them because I think I am overmedicated, but then again stable is a pretty good thing. I just hate being so flat emotionally and lacking motivation to do things.