I agree that people are generally selfish and think of themselves. I'm one of them. I'd also like to think that I could care about someone I can't picture, or know, and only read words on a page and try to guess what kind of help that person needs.
That makes me feel extremely cautious on a forum like this when someone is in great distress and says that they are close to suicide.

Just writing this, makes me unsure of whether to post or not. Every word we speak, every action we take, has an affect on another human being. I'm human. Imperfect. You're human. Imperfect. Can you possibly begin by accepting that you can strive to be better, or give up and be like what you see in the world (selfishness, greed, etc.) or just be you? Imperfectly perfect. That's all any one us are.

Can you accept help? Can you please ask one of the questions you have, directly, so someone, if not myself, can answer it? Thank you for reading.

I've just re-watched a movie someone reminded me of a while ago when I struggled with my own demons. Moonstruck, it's an oldie, but I think it is good. Have as best a night as possible.