I can't be the successfil career person because of what stress does to me. I have made so many bad choices in life i was just reflecting on on them. And how different my life would be. My son would be alive my daughter would be in my car, i would have a home of my own but i made bad decisions that cost all of it.

I'm sorry for your troubles. Focus on treatment, get to a place of security mentally. Than try again with your goals. You were rushing yourself, take your time there is no rush. I made a bad decision after graduation and thus have no experience in my field of study. Can't get a job in my field.