I feel like a switch was flipped this morning.

I drove to therapy this morning at 87mph in a 55mph zone because I thought it would be fun to drive fast. The thrill of things!

I also have a permanent smile on my face and just crack up at anything and everything. For example, my therapist and I were randomly talking about kids with glasses and how little kids (like aged 0-3) tend to wear goggles so that the glasses don't fall off or whatever. I just found that hilarious. And I also found it hilarious when my therapist and I talked about my severe sinus issues that likely require surgery. I thought surgery was the funniest thing in the world.

I'm still hearing and seeing things, and getting psychic visions. But they are more intense and frequent now. The visions, as always, have taken over my eyesight. Like I'll be sitting down watching TV, when all of a sudden my eyesight goes black and then I get a vision of the future. The future vision is usually guided by a voice. The voice tells me what is happening... except sometimes the voice mumbles and I can't understand it. The visions only last for a max of 5 seconds though.

I'm getting normal sleep. Over the course of seven days, I got 9 hrs, 10 hrs, 9 hrs, 8 hrs, 7 hrs, 7 hrs, then 8 hrs.

The emergency pdoc appt that I had with a random pdoc was interesting because he said possible schizoaffective since the voices thing has been going on for at least 2 years, with and without being in an episode. My therapist says I'm psychotic right now, but apparently I have been for over a month.

Just wanted to vent. Hopefully I have the motivation to clean my apartment today because I'm super distracted right now.