I haven't self-harmed in a couple of years. I made myself stop for the people that I care about. The person I made a pact with to stop, left. She doesn't really care anymore, I guess. I've been keeping myself from doing it for the new people in my life who care about me, but I still get the urges. I still find myself rubbing the place I used to cut without much of a thought. I won't do it again, I won't go back there, but sometimes the urge to do so is overwhelming. I don't really feel like I can talk to anyone about it without them worrying, being judged, or being pitied.