It's. good to see you again, Secretum!
You shouldn't have to hold back with your therapist on account of their issues. It's not fair on you. I'm sorry for all that is going on and that you feel you can't really talk about it. Can you get a new T? Also, how about a new roommate? That sounds like a very uncomfortable situation...
I agree with Nola -- nothing wrong with taking an AP. What helps you is what's important.