If things aren't going well I think it's easy to unrecover. Sorry you had a job where you were pretty much the only one there (But taking a job with lots of people is too much! Been there, done all that). I learned I didn't do well in a situation with only a couple people, especially if it was in someone's home/basement! I remember how much trouble it was to try and get out of that job without offending the other person. Very stressful being there.

Do you journal or read or have any interests/hobbies? I get comfort out of thinking up new things to try or ideas or just daydreaming; of course then I get stuck in the daydream instead of going out and "doing" whatever and that can be pretty depressing to realize. . .