You have eluded before and now again, that people are not intelligent if they can not or will not read through your huge sprawling block of self pity. I scanned your text and besides blaming others you obsess over yourself. You are lucky to have such wits about you while going through such a rough time. My depression equals staring at a wall drooling alone and hoping to disappear.
But anywho, perhaps you should donate your time at a charity. Less time to obsess over your every move and less time to write blocks of text obsessing over how others must be too stupid to also not want to obsess over your every move.
cheers