Not being able to shut it off is the worst! Even after all the therapy and progress, to be basically attacked by our own thoughts, emotions etc. just messes with us! I find myself getting defensive and angry sometimes at work when my boss or a client or whoever is (or seems to be) unreasonable or says something in a certain tone . . . it brings back the emotions associated with my trauma! Then it's the beating myself up for reacting the way I did, embarrassment, worry & all that mess. Next comes the extreme reaction within that sets me back erasing all the progress I've made.

One thing that helps me is to blast music, usually some really angry loud stuff (like Sevendust, Tool, Def Tones) and just scream along! For some reason that gets it out of my system and sometimes just turns it all off for awhile. Almost like flushing out the negative and re-booting my brain. I dunno why that works for me but it does.

Hugs to you all!