I dont really pay attention to which I say. It doesnt matter much to me. I feel like I HAVE it but also in a way I AM it- in the same way that I AM creative- quiet- female- ect. It is a part of me. Its not the only part or me. But it has effected me as a person enough where- I have to give it credit because- I AM- in a way- a manifestation of some qualities of it. Some things I do and am because of it- it has made me insightful and empathetic in ways I might not gave been otherwise- it has made me suicidal and self hating in ways I might not be otherwise. Both good and bad- I both HAVE it- and AM it.

But I also AM so much more