I am not sure if this is a feeling or not....but control. When I feel like I don't have control of my life, I can find control through my eating...in a weird way. The eating and purging gets out of control...but, my mind finds some type of escape by binging. Things around me may be going haywire, but I can sit down and have a good binge and while I am doing it, feel okay. I am not exactly sure what feeling is attached to that--maybe hopelessness?