CB, answer this question, what do you control? I don't mean to simply have the ability to affect....I'm talking un-threatenable,rock solid,REAL control of? I don't think that any of us have REAL (that which is un-threatenable) control over ANYTHING!! the closest we come is our thought's...we can control those, but only to a certain extent because we're not completely logical all of the time and neither is our thinking. If any of this is true, then how is it that we take the responsibity for so many things we have no control over? You seem to fear a great many things...thats because theres a part of you that already knows what I'm talking about IS true...but in order to accept this "truth" you would have to accept that if in fact YOU are not in control than WHO is? and thats not a question you're prepared to deal with right now...or are you?