thanks for your replies..
still very sad but it wont hurt for very long.
feelings come and they go.
just going to live a silent life - dive into art and let it speak for me.
i dont have words to say anymore to ppl .. some ppl are worthwhile and are worth holding onto .. i am just not one of those.
its ok .. it has been that way all my life.
it is all i know.
ppl love you - say they never will leave you - i will be ther for you whenever you need me - and all those lines .. then poof they leave.