Hi and welcome. Sorry to hear of how they treated you after your suicide attempt and your other troubles, too. What has helped me at times with people who act that way is to write them a letter. At times I have sent the letters and sometimes I did not. I wrote what they did and and how my feelings were effected. Yes, you can get past thinking about them all the time. Sometimes instead of sending the letter I just read it out loud with emphasis and to let out my emotions on it. Rejection is a very hard thing, I know. I always think that finding new friends is the answer for me. Maybe learning to meditate would keep your mind off of how they hurt you. There are lots of books available on the subject. I also try to divert my attention when something is on my mind all the time. For me tending to my pets and cleaning my apartment helps get my mind off of things. Hope this helps.

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