Psych drugs, therapy, coffee, plus when I almost died 3 years ago my family (dad, sister, brother, husband, daughter and son) where so upset that I came to believe that I was needed. The only way to not go on (a successful attempt) would have devastated them. Attempting traumatized the people I love so I think loved ones are the main reason we go on and I think that if you are alone--you should consider getting a pet. Pets are just like loved ones who care for us and give us a reason to go on.

I am sorry you are struggling.