Hi. Yes, I think a lot of people on this site can relate to elements of your experience, sure. It's a very difficult path having depression and so forth. I suffer in those areas myself. Yes, suicidal thoughts start becoming part of the picture as well - of course they do - but like everybody else we really just want to live and get through all this inner struggle. Hang in there and keep reaching out Sadie, stay connected, even if it is via the internet, because every little bit helps.