You obviously have an active mind and have many questions. I’m sorry someone branded you as a huge block of self pity. Try to keep in mind that we’re not professionals and have our own issues to deal with. Something you said evidently triggered them.

When I started reading your post I thought “oh goody! Questions!” I love to think and debate. Got a little disappointed when you limited your questions to “where can I ask questions?” I’m not familiar with websites that can answer you questions, especially since I don’t know what they are.

Maybe you could try asking 1 or 2 questions at a time. You can ask questions here. It’s just the risk is that someone may have some kind of reaction that hurts you. Keep trying to stay alive. Leave no stone unturned.