Thank you for your input, everyone. I like the idea of seeing both every other week, that might really work for me. I need both the kick in the pants that helps with everyday functioning which I got from T1, and the deeper work + lack of abandonment fear I get from T2.
To answer some questions here:
1. Terminated with T1 because they began to suggest that I was feeling more stable, had got through my crisis, and maybe we should ramp down session frequency. This was 1 year into therapy (my first time ever) and about 6 months after I left a marriage featuring rape and other fun stuff. I absolutely panicked, I did NOT feel done with therapy, I was still struggling with depression and PTSD and abandonment issues obviously. I was honest about this to T1 but they responded by saying it would be therapeutic for me to feel less dependent on them. That was it for me, I couldn't bear for them to think I was dependent. I said, whoa, I don't feel like I can't do without therapy, I'm not lacking in confidence, thanks for the great work and help. The termination was warm and amicable, but I was also pretty gutted by it for three-four weeks after. Then I started with T2 for help with continuing depression and PTSD symptoms.
2. With T2 I have not yet been able to open up about the termination with T1. I'm a coward, whelp. But I'm honest about everything else, including my frustration with my failures in day to day functioning. T2 is much less talky and is more interested in probing or letting me talk than exploring practical solutions.
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Okay, follow up question:
Do I tell both Ts that I am also working with someone else if I choose the "both" option?? I can't imagine being able to do that. Yes, I know, I have Issues with a capital I, this makes me feel like I'd be hurting the feelings and I just can't get past that. I know I wouldn't be doing anything wrong so I'm fine with DOING it. But it's soooo uncomfortable to tell them!
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