so, my friend rachel has an eating disorder, and last week she collapsed (twice), through lack of food- and the second time ended up in the hospital.
when she came back (on the wednesday morning), I did manage to make her eat something
but after that she stopped again, and because of it she keeps fainting.

this has caused me to do a lot of checking up on her, and to get extremely worried when she stops moving (what goes through my mind is, is she just asleep, or is she ill?), and I usually go in to a panic and start tapping her arm and saying.... rach, rach, are you their?

usually she snaps right out of it, and is as right as rain

well: next week she is going to her friend natalie's for 4 days, and as part of the stay, she is doing a judo class, and a zumba class (I really don't agree with that because of how she is feeling, but okay)

what I'm really worried about is that I won't be able to check on her every day, and I won't know how she's doing.

i've not met natalie, but I've heard rachel talk to her on the phone- and most of the time it's angry words (god knows why she is actually going)

I don't think I'm afraid that natalie's going to hurt her, more so that A I can't check on her, and B, the only thing she's eaten this week is something I managed to make her eat

4 days without food is a long time... and if she's really going to go ahead with the zumba and the judo, dangerous also

on thursday, I stayed with her until 12 30 A.M, because I was so worried about her. she eventually told me it was okay to go, she was okay (even though she'd stopped moving that night 3 times), and I did go- but I do worry about next week.

I know I can't really protect her from what she wants to do (go and see natalie and do those classes), but I just want to tell her to stay behind and start feeling better before she does some serious damage.