((Amethyst)), you are going to need some time to grieve. Now that you are away from the abuse you are going to need some time to "heal". You are right, a lot of people simply don't understand PTSD and how much effort it takes to slowly heal. But, there are people who do understand and those are the people you need to seek out and often there are live support groups for women who have been in abusive relationships and need healing and support.