Okay here's my rant du jour.

How the heck can you trust a T upon whom you transfer all the confusion and fear you bottled up as defenseless child? If the working through is supposed to include this transference then how are you supposed to trust again, even if you know it is transference and you are projecting?

When T does something IRL that is NOT a projection and I respond AS IF i were the defenseless child, then it is a transference. BUT he still really did the crappy %#@&#! or say the crappy things IRL. So, today I think that therapy is a bunch of crap.

I will never tell him anything again. There was a reason I put all this stuff away. It is toxic to me and those around me.

T says it is the pain of abandonment but what I want to know is wasn't once around enough? Why go through this twice?