I’m a 30 year old woman. I’ve had anxiety depression and ocd since I was 17. I’ve never had friends or a boyfriend thought I always wanted a guy. I’ve tried lots of therapist and none have helped me. My teens and 20s were wasted because of my anxiety and I almost never went out. I’m 30 now and I feel more depressed than ever. I feel old and unattractive now. I always had low self esteem but I compare myself constantly to younger girls and feel like nothing compared to them. I keep hearing guys all want younger girls and that they are more attractive. I always wanted to enjoy being young and carefree with a guy but now I feel I missed out. I don’t know where to begin to fix my life. I feel being 30 there’s nothing to look forward to and that life is gonna be boring. I do not enjoy things I use to because I feel my age ruins it. I think of my age constantly and feel sad. I’m scared of getting older and dying. I hear that life I only good when in 20s and I missed it. I don’t know what to do. Please any advice would great.