(((((((((((Sister))))))))))))),
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BUT he still really did the crappy %#@&#! or say the crappy things IRL. So, today I think that therapy is a bunch of crap.

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I know what you mean! I've asked my T about this and he always says that he is human and says/does some "bone-headed" things and will probably do this in the future. I guess he is trying to say that this happens in relationships IRL but that people without abandonment issues are able to look past the bad things that were said/done and move on. I am not able to do this either, though. My feelings run too deep and it takes me a long time to get over things.

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T says it is the pain of abandonment but what I want to know is wasn't once around enough? Why go through this twice?

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OMG, Sister. I've just totally figured out that my devastating feelings are the pain of abandonment. Don't they seem unbearable at times? Is it any wonder why we can't move past things? Why can't people understand this? It is so frustrating. I am so sorry to hear that you, or anyone else, has such intense emotions as I do. I wouldn't wish them on my worst enemy. I don't know the answer to why go through this twice. I'm in so much pain now that I know I can't just do nothing, so I'm hoping therapy will rid me of these emotions sooner or later. I hope the same for you.