I first saw the title and then I was shocked that you are only 30 years old. I know that the prefix word "only" seems unbelievable to you. By the title, I thought that you were much older. For some strange reason I had always felt like I'm getting old and dreading it as far back as when I was 13.

In my 20s I was unsettled. I traveled a lot during that decade of my life, including bi-coastal living. For a couple of years I would spend 7 months in the east coast and five months in the west coast. I have driven cross-country seven times. It was a nice time for me and have some nice memories. I had good times with friends at that time. But I didn't have a real place of my own and worked at crappy jobs. Also I had some crappy living conditions at that time.

In my 30s I was unsettled also, but it got better by my mid-30s and beyond. As of now, I own my place outright and have a very good job. Though I feel like I'm far from retirement, even though I am closing in at that age. I could sell my place and get a good amount of money for it.

I don't know what to tell you, but I know how you feel. Lots of times I wake up in the morning feeling very depressed and thinking that being old is so near and that there are going to be a lot of sorrows ahead. But, that's life! I hope that you can find a good therapist. Sometimes you have to look around a whole lot before something can click.