Today my PTSD symptoms have died down a bit and I feel more stable.I have a lot of self hatred,and I am rejecting myself quite a lot.I feel seeing as my own narc sis tried to bring about my death and messed with my mind to make me keep being ill,and a bloke I loved when quite young abused me and wanted me dead too,making me change my will,I feel unlovable for them to hate me so much and it makes me hate myself...so today I feel that and I feel unworthy of love too.It hurts,it hurts a lot..I am struggling to take care of myself yet I am plodding on.