I’m deeply sorry for what you are going through. (Huggs) I don’t know how long you can take it either. Sometimes you just have ride it out and wait for it pass...and it will pass. Dealing with grief is horrendous and harder for us that have mental problems. It gets really scary.

In the past few years I’ve lost a son in law to suicide, A grandson to drug related violence, a sister to cancer, and another sister via a drug overdose. There are days when I feel so battered by emotions that I feel like I’ve been tied to a tree in a hurricane filled with razor wire.

The only thing to hang in to is the fact that it WILL get better. It may be small comfort I know. Please hang in there