I'm so mad at you. I know it's my fault. I have a big mouth and I need to learn to keep it shut but why can't you just let me live my life or end it the way I want. I know it's your job but why do you have to do what you do. I agreed to do things your way even though it's making me feel trapped but then you kept pushing and demanding more and more. Now you're throwing me under the bus with my other doctors. I know you're not going to change your mind like last time and alter our contract.

I know you're happy you got your way but I feel trapped and betrayed. My mind is spinning trying to find a way out of it I know if I try to quit therapy in person now with you you're just make me go to the hospital. I'm hating myself and hating you right now. The worst part is that I know you don't care you're just happy things turned out the way they did. I don't know what to do my worst fears are coming true.