I've been able to think clearly for everyone else but me lately.
Just took a vistaril for the first time in about a year. I started totally flipping out! I have no reason to be that way but my entire being seems like it wants to explode. I hope they were still good and that it will help. Maybe they weren't? What do they turn into? I've been relying on kava a lot lately, about 3 times in a week, and I know there's no physical addiction possibility, but maybe all this is all more than I am capable of handling? I'm scared. I mean, do I belong here by MYSELF? Is this crazy guy capable of taking care of himself? I might have to take more Seroquel if I keep having trouble sleeping like I have been having. But, then my blood pressure drops when I take it and that raises my heart rate. I just need to know I'm going to be ok! It's been almost three weeks I've been here, tomorrow it is.