It seems like I'm constantly finding myelf in this extremely awkward situation where when I start to talk, think, or am in a physical position (e.g. semenary) about religion, I don't neccessarily accept the teachings of the Bible and The Book of Morman as they are. Instead I accept them, and try to make some sence of them through philosophy and debate. This is very confusing to type down also, because it won't make sense. But I'm going to try and type down what I mean.
Let's take praying for example. I don't believe in praying. But Mormons of course do. I was told that in order to be Mormon I have to believe in EVERYTHING that they believe in. I object because I feel that that I have the right to choose to what to believe in and what not to believe in. Also, I will never be an official member of the LDS church because I was never baptized.