Hello Viewofthesky,
Sorry for your losses! My condolences over your father.
Seems like you’re doing all the right things. It definitely takes time to heal from these situations. Abandonment and dependency are major anxiety producers. Some of us take even longer to bounce back from life changing set backs!
I’ve been kinda stuck for about 5 years now. Dealing with a traumatic break up, and feeling that my best years were behind me. Then caring for a terminally ill parent, who passed just over a year ago. I’m still in a bit of a fog. Lack of motivation, not really wanting to go anywhere. Not finding a job that I can muster up the will to attend. Therapy appts that don’t get me changing my thoughts or actions.
Some days are better than others. I just keep on going through the motions, and saying to myself—this too shall pass. I know I need to be more proactive in making it pass.
I’ve decided a change of scenery will do me good and I’m going west this summer.
I’m counting on that shift to help me start living again.
Life throws some unexpected twists and we choose to handle things based on our experiences and abilities. We mourn the losses. We decide our next plan, and then take steps every day (even tiny steps)in the direction of our new life.
I’ll cheer you on in this new phase of your life. You may be leading the way.
Wish you the best. Xo
Sans