I am sorry that you went through that. I have thought about this exactly! When you find someone like that it is hard NOT to compare every relationship after to it.

Even if we break up I won't have kids with just anyone. It would have to match what I have now and love like this doesn't happen often. Not to mention that I think I will always love him so how could I even fully be with someone when my heart is elsewhere? I would hate to settle on a guy just so I can fulfill a inner pull to have kids. That doesn't seem like happiness to me.