My mother insists that I live, wants me to take meds but I don't want to because if I live I'll regret it later on but I don't tell her that because she won't understand.
No one will understand it when I say I want to die, no one is willing to give me the easy choice of dying. They have to make it hard on me and many others to live a life which is not their own

I seriously don't get why on Earth people are forced to live, just give us the instant-kill meds and there won't be a waste of resources, my mother wouldn't have to struggle. I just REALLY REALLY wish someone could be declared incurable and be let go

I don't want to live, my life is not worth it, otherwise I wouldn't want to die you idiots!!
God I wish I could tell that to my mother but I have no idea how

So much suffering for what? So I and others can continue to post here over and over endlessly for the rest of our lives??
I'm speaking for myself first and foremost but some people may identify in silence

I have concluded that I have no future. Some idiots will call me "you sound intelligent, it would be a waste". Wait, so now you're doubting my intelligence when I say I want to die? Just pathetic