Dear t: I found some clarity inside myself yesterday about our "situation" while doing that journey with E. She came along with me, in a big sister kind of a role, which really warmed my heart since I've never had a big sister and well, I guess I've always longed for one, given my attachment to you and to so many other women in my life all the way along starting with my grandmother (girl scout leaders, middle school teachers, a high school teacher, a pastor...)

So many feelings, t. So many feelings.