The word "transference" annoys me.

If connection is good then it's right T for you.
If you can't find any connection, it's not for you.
If you don't like your T, find another T.
If you attach to your T then you should know that people attach to person who help them in bad times and it's okay.
If you have strong feelings for your T then... I can't comment it. They would say you miss your mother or father or maybe lover. I would say it's different for each other, some of you find T attractive, some of you feel really lonely in real life. I don't know. We all are different.

I feel my T as a friend to me but I know she is not my friend and it's okay. We have good connection and she helps me. It's hard to truly trust her because it's hard for me to trust any women and she is not exception.
I think I made her mad because I acted totally like I shouldn't, it wasn't because of her but because of issues with someone but she said that it helped her to understand me better. Anyway I think she was really annoyed and I said sorry all the time for that session.
Sometimes I'm sure she thinks I'm bad person because I feel like bad person and it's hard to believe that someone can think I'm not bad person. Sometimes I'm afraid she wish me bad things but I hope she is not interested in my life that much to do it.
All my thought and fears are based on my experiences and thoughts about other people.
I can't trust people but I need help so I must try to trust. And to believe she is ethical and won't risk with her job to tell anyone about me.
Okay, when she says that she can talk about other's clients if she doesn't mention the names and think it would help, I don't want she mention something about me to others.

I don't think it's transference. It's my fears. I trust only in my mother. You would say I should trust my T because she may be my mother or reminds me of her? No.