I do need something to remind me to cope, because I'm forgetting that a lot. I'm to the point that everything just makes me want to cry. I don't know what symbols would actually get through to me though. Maybe I need to write myself notes and leave them where I can't miss them. A lot of them would simply say "remember to cope."

I'm also learning about affirmations and how to use them in a way that will work. The key is, if you try to make an affirmation an "I message" too soon (example, "I love myself and deserve to take good care of myself."), then it doesn't work because you don't believe that yet and you will fight it and reject it. But if it's coming from someone else, or even from a part of you to another part of you, in the form of a "you message" (such as I love you and want you to take good care of yourself), then there is less of an urge to argue and fight. Notes might be good for affirmations in form of you messages too. And that would have to count as positive coping.

I caught my hair on fire tonight and the burnt hair smell is making me sick. I guess a haircut is mandatory now. I'd been trying to decide if I want to cut it or not for several molnths. But I wanted to send it to locks of love if I did cut it, and I don't know if it's salvageable for that now.