I was on depakote for years as well as Risperidone, and it totally blocked feeling of any kind. As if there was some sort of detachment between thoughts and emotions. I always felt so stifled and repressed. Like nothing could be expressed appropriately. When I finally got off of the meds I was overrun by emotions that should have been there in the first place. It was then that I realized that I had to learn how to deal with me being me, not being artificially sedated because of immaturity. My emotions are powerful, so I had to become strong enough mentally to manage them. It's been over 15 years since I came off the meds, and I am truly thankful for not continuing. You are strong enough to come into your seat of control.