I am in many trances... i am becoming really much worse at managing it... or maybe i am going through too mych, but past the point of no return.. with no other solution but to go further, i messed up and now im breaking my mind and i cant stop it because it domino and doing it on its own..

Division increasing...

Im not smoking much weed anymore because im at this job 10 hours... not drinking.. i just sleep... and wake up and work and sleep.. but im getting too tired and dont think i can keep on like this... the job is not too hard but become very hard to me because i have to count and exert lotta physical energy and i just cant focus at all.. i dont want have an accident and hurt or kill someone or myself like that at work..

Pdoc thursday.. my T call today and shes back and ok and made appointment for monday... i dont know how to make this ok or explainable to the boss, he been ok so far with pdoc app but they are like every 4 months .. T be every 2 weeks i dunno what to say

I bought a car.. and now i have to pass driver test i have learners permit.. but i havnt been driving anything but forklift and bobcat at work...

My trance feeling gets bad when im trying to drive...
My reaction speed is not good... im delayed lol...