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Apr 09, 2018, 09:04 PM
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Member Since: Apr 2014
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Being excessively neat is triggering for me. I was very neat as a child as a way to stay out of trouble. At 5 years old I cleaned my room and made my bed every day without fail.
As an adult I am messy, but there's order to my chaos. I try to maintain a level of organization, and there is organization behind the messiness. I also have cleaners that come in once a month to help me clean so it doesn't get out of hand.
I acknowledge I am messy. It's how I am. I'm not changing or going to pretend to try and change for anyone. I keep things clean though by bringing in a housekeeper every so often. If someone wants to judge me for it (and others have) they can go to hell.
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Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder
Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia.
Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien
Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less...
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