Beginning when I was 23-24-years-old, I had nightly hallucinations as I was trying to get to sleep. The longest-running was auditory and I would listen to a radio program hosted by Mr. Post. It was a mixture of a kind of talk-radio and music. A wide variety of topics (usually concerning the depths of my depravities) and such odd music.

He’s been gone for years, now, but returned last night. I couldn’t sleep — I haven’t slept — because of the things that were said and the loudness of the music.

My antipsychotics can’t be increased. Does any know of medications that helps with hallucinations that are not antipsychotics?

I can’t have him in my life again.

I didn’t know where to post this, really.