lol. Yeah there are somethings that you can ignore and check off to absentmindedness or maybe distraction...but to actually have taken this much effort and thought....very unsettling.

It still s playing in my head. I’m beginning to see a memory of it full of sponges organized, but it is vague and foggy like maybe just my imagination.

There are times I go in a daze and come to later to find myself heading to work, bills are paid, already ate, driving down the freeway. I reach for a cup of hot coffee and the cup is now cold and empty. Stuff like keys disappear to later find them in doors that I haven’t got to yet...small wow things that I roll my eyes at.

Just hours, but not days thank goodness.

Once I had a part wake up after years, looked around, said “I’m in another state with a woman with two kids in bed. I guess we’ll see how this goes”. Wha?

I hate that it’s a reminder of the scrambled egg that I call my mind. It’s depressing actually. So I guess that’s why I try to keep laughing it off because I can get sui over it.