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Originally Posted by Claritytoo
Ok, I had to have emergency gallbladder surgery last week. I was in excruciating pain. It came on at midnight and came out of no where. When the ambulance arrived I was unable to talk. I said a few things but that was it. I was making strange movements with my mouth, I was in a strange position, I was unable to take care of myself. I could see it all happening but I did nothing to change what I was doing. I remember behaving this way once before. It was at a time when I was at my worst mentally. I was extremely depressed and wanting to die. I don't know what I was doing just that it was odd, and I wasn't able to form words. Also when I came out of anesthesia I was there but I was not out. So I was confused and it took me a few times of opening my eyes in order to grasp where I was. I noticed the nurse was concerned and than I was able to step up. I am very stressed out by all that happened. I feel disorientated and don't want to leave the house.
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sometimes I forget who is who on here with all the new members and name changes and so on, so question are you DID....
if so maybe you can ask your alters why they didnt help you through this and why they are not helping you now and maybe ask them to help you.
reason I say this is because any time I had a major health issue or surgery that I was having trouble handling I would be so upset/ triggered that I would have my dissociative symptoms (numb, spaced out and so on) and an alter that could handle the health issue would take over and do the talking , answering the paramedics/ ambulance people, hospital nurses and doctors questions the whole thing. this began with me with the first time as a child that the extreme abuse required treatment for infections, rips and tears, bruising all kinds of problems that come from being a very young child undergoing extreme trauma from adults in the kinds of abuses that caused me to be DID.
my point you survived to adulthood through medical treatments that came from the extreme trauma's that causes DID they can help you now too.