Thank you for response. Those are all good suggestions. I don't think I have a problem with self-esteem. It is lonely being with someone afflicted with dementia. It may be that I just don't have what it takes to continue doing this. I've been doing this for 4 to 6 years. It gets boring. It gets isolating.

He wants us to go out for dinner soon. He means well. He never much enjoys going out and can't wait to come back home. It's just more work and worry for me.

At my house, I would be busy with my birdfeeders and tending some rose bushes and visiting my next door neighbor. I could cook what I like to eat. I could go out with a friend.

I could do some of that now. It's just a hassle to arrange.

Maybe some new meds would help. I just doubt this doctor is going to take any interest in me.

I appreciate the suggestions.