court-knee, I've seen grown women "loose it" because they're air conditoning went out, the point? IT'S ALL RELATIVE in this case, perception IS reality...what's your "way out" ? I think you need to give yourself the permission to finish being a victim, its a process and you're stuck...you were hurt, your pain has been validated, I encourage you to find forgivness, for your own sake! then you can move on and this will never bother you again.