Is this best in Depression? Relationships? Somewhere else? I'm not sure. It is here because I am in a flap. I am really feeling down and hard on myself. I am worried and at a loss about what to do. Coping? Not very well.

In several weeks it is my boyfriend's 65th birthday. My plan was for a simple night out. It seems I have disappointed countless others who have expected me to make a big deal out of this. A sister contacted me wanting to know where the reception would be. Good lord, was I expected to put one on? Was I expected to plan and coordinate this? Am I expected to feed all these people? Is there some unwritten rule of etiquette dictating I put on such a thing? Why would they wait until so late to confirm with me if I'd made such plans? Why would, if such a thing was expected, no one have stepped forward to offer me assistance? Why is this being sprung upon me? Am I really expected to have arranged all this?

I really feel like poop.