I can relate I pushed myself til I’d crash many times and many times I got burned out but thinking about my kids kept me going as they were young . I need to exercise, eat right, and watch my sleep patterns better but I’d say don’t beat your self up. Every fall I crash get depressed and every spring I make up for it . That is until my health got severe then I tried a sun light box and in the 8 moths using it I was able to stop taking antidepressants as my dr took me off. I had been taking them for 25 years and now do not need them I get way less depressed and have more energy. Talk to your Dr. it could help.