It's so hard to live.
Sometimes it seems so impossible...depression, anxiety and other...they are all related.

I can't explain how hard it is to live with social anxiety or avoidant personality disorder or whatever dissociative disorder I have... The name does not matter. The fear and the struggle is real.
Spending almost 12hours of my day just wishing I could run away and hide. Feeling too much vulnerable for others to see at any time. It's really painful to never feel safe or have some ground under my feet.

And the more I try to feel the less I can't. I don't want to live like this. I don't know how strong I am and how long will I take it. But it's been forever. I fear the day I won't take it anymore.