T-

Okay wait hold up.

1) When you were introducing this "I think we need to find you a different therapist" idea, you pointed out (somewhat bizarrely, in my opinion) that all sorts of situations cause therapeutic relationships to end. You noted that any number of those things could have eventually led to the premature dissolution of our therapeutic dyad--you might get pregnant or move to another town or change positions within the organization (like do more teaching and less clinical time or whatever) or finally get over your masochistic jollies and leave this beloved institution of ours. Are you actively planning to do any of those things??? I mean Jesus Christ T, I don’t ask this with the intention of prying into your personal life. This is not me being nosy--you've made me feel pretty g*d*** head-shy and I wanna know if you're planning to stick around or not.

Maybe it'll help to think of it as tit for tat—you made me feel really terrible (and in the end all the chaos you created came to naught), so now you have to disclose some (really minor) **** about yourself. It's a crude form of poetic justice—you made me feel ****** about the future, and now in order to make me feel less ****** about the future, you have to take a hit and tell me some **** about your future i.e. "do you currently have plans to leave your job in the next two years?". (Though I won’t ask why you always get that same look on your face whenever you talk about how getting pregnant is not something that is likely to happen to you. See? I’m being a Good F***ing Patient and Respecting Your F***ing Boundaries.)

2) On that note, do you understand how terrible you made me feel with this "let's find you another shrink" suggestion? I was really really sad. I *cried*. I HARDLY EVER CRY--IT IS LIKE A ONCE A YEAR EVENT AND THIS YEAR IT WAS YOUR EFFING FAULT. After having been in the hospital for two miserable weeks I was finally doing better and then everything fell apart and it was your fault. The crying and the not-leaving-the-hospital-for-ANOTHER-two-weeks and the not-catching-the-MAOI-upswing. That felt really really awful. And now what you just like take it back and want us to return to the frame? F*** you, dude.

-C

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